feels like uber childish, come to think of it i am not really a grown up
even if i am one, i have the choices or ways to express myself
it can be anyway that i want it to be, no one really cares
feels that i always make things seems suprising for myself, it will fail
sometimes i just see it coming, so i just can't simply pretend to that i can't see
i also have lonely ambitions which i destroy the entire human population
then i am ought to live by myself with none companies by me
sometimes i feel people can a lil burden to me, as there is difference
no one is gonna listen or do whatever you want, they're not your puppet
its hard to be patience and wait for them to understand what do you want
its best you don't expect anything or much from anyone
human can hurt you mentally very badly, especially with words
words are sharper than the knife you have in your kitchen
human's self defence always includes lying if is necessary
it just that there is a tendency to lie about everything
i am emotionally broke down, majorly depressed; also utterly bitter
what is the remedy for this ? nothing seems to fall into place
i can't seems to detect the origin of this emotional sickness of mine
i want to close my eyes and imagine to be in my happy place
did you ever feel that you are so desparate for happiness,
that you can lie to yourself just so you can feel much better ?
i am telling you that i will if it is very, very drastic
lie is somehow sooting to live in, just like an illusion you desire badly
everytime i am ready to accept new things, there is always something seems to be
holding me back from recovery of the pain and the hurt
it is going forth and back, just like gravity
it is the time to try defying the gravity, and live according to you
Pondering about things that bring me down, occasionally !
