send my goodbyes

lately i feel so out of place, there is so much things going on
its affecting my study life though, i couldn't concentrate
seriously i don't feel calm or serene at home, i just ..
i just feel so annoyed and unwanted in a way

my family wasn't the easier to communicate with
as i am growing up, words is getting lesser and lesser
its seems like communication isn't important no more
the only thing we talk about is our whereabout

i feel school is 100 times better than home, no joke
my class teacher and friends are so supportive
always giving me encouragement whether its advice or tease
it feels so warm , never feeling out of place ...

let me share some of my recent encounters,
recently i just passed my driving test, i am suppose to be happy
but i am not because there is a lot of restriction thrown into me
like i can't drive, more like thinking i am incapable ...

before i passed, i miserably failed twice, i was obviously sad
but my parents made me feel worse, kept on telling me i knew you can't do it
in school, everyone tell me i can do it better next time, wonderful
i don't know whether they are exepcting too much or not

everyday i die little at home, filled with misery
here is a postcard, send my misery away